If someone asks me what my biggest fear is. I doubtlessly gonna respond about how I can't accomplish or experienced what I desired. for example I really want to see a rocket or work in a space company like NASA or SpaceX. When I was a kid especially in grade school, I always found myself reading some books about science like outer space, dinosaurs, or other phenomenons in the world just to feed my curiosity.
However, as I grew older, that curiosity seems to fade away. A factor that plays an important role is the environment where I grew up, like the people, the place, or other things. I felt the people where I grew up is not really match my personality, I'm kinda weird, curious, funny (just my opinion, LOL), and full of unexpected things (sort of). But hey everyone just keeps judging me they said I'm weird, fag, and lots of other insults. You know, when someone is judged by lots of people (especially a kid) he will be searching about the thing that makes everyone hate him and eventually struggling to fit in and he becomes one of them. But you know? this is a cult.
As time goes by, I finally realized I have to do something I like before I'm getting old and die, or worse, I'll die before I'm old. For the 12 years, I always pin myself to other people, need to be rescued from the loneliness, or thinking too much about their perception of me. I even make a blog about how lonely I'm. when I looked at my past I think I'm too corny. my whole life is just my stories to please other people so they want to be my friend. From jokes I've told to my quirky act that I think they will love although they are not.
I hate when I have to deal with time, I hate how verbs changed despite time, I hate how people changed, my self changed, I hate time because It changed everything. But what I hate the most is how it changed my perception of the world. However, the stronger nemesis the stronger superhero should be. despite that as time flew by, I become stronger and not caring about what others thinking about me. Because strong or cool nemesis needs to be paired with also a strong superhero.
As I mentioned, I'm glad how time changed my perception. From now on, I need to be the person I am supposed to be, the young TV (just call me TV ok, LOL) that always curious about anything. So, this blog I use as my weekly journal or my stories as I trying my best to reach my dream (my dream is to work at a space company) or doing something I wanna do. Can't wait to see how my future hiding from me. As this rocket launches, I hope it will arrive at its destiny someday.
Wisdom this week: Time can change everything, don't let the time changed you. Only you can change yourself.
Burst your limit to unknown space
