Stories From the Rocket

The wrong decision probably stings, but we never learn when we always make the right choices right?? This is perhaps the worse chapter in my life, I met new people, new experiences, new places and so on... they were really exciting indeed, but aren't the old time missed?..

There's a lot of things happened since my last update... I just graduated from my university and finally get a new job which is intriguing. Honestly, I am quite happy right now, but there's no happiness without sadness, right? So this is something that I highlighted during these months.

1. Huge Depression Session. I don't really know how and why I managed to overcome this. During this period there's nothing I would like to do except want to kill myself and sleep. I have a sleeping disorder because of this, but ain't it better to have that rather than to lose your life? hahaha... I can't overcome this without help from my family and God. Sometimes you hate to see everything change, but this is the part of growing up, ain't worth being depressed about that. Kudos to my sister that always give me advice and listens to my stories, hehe I will never recover if it weren't for you, hehe.
2. Feeling Lost and Left Out. This is still related to the no 1 but anyway, I feel my childish behavior and exiting about things really kill my opportunity to grow. I honestly think I feel left out by my friends who have better careers and life... Frankly, this is nothing to worry about right?? everyone has their own story, and other people's lives, of course, are amusing but believe me, that's not the life we wanted. I honestly wanted busy corporate life but after I experienced that, I think farm life is better... but not the money though hahaha. Despite my wrong point of view, I lost the sense of myself... the colorful point of view about the world becoming black and white. I hate bland things... and I later not realized I am becoming one.
3. Meeting New People. I met lots of cool and awesome people along the way, from a cool sugarcane harvesting supervisor to a former McKinsey consultant from MIT. Maybe this is the best part of my job, I met and interact with lots of people..... Honestly, I also try to find my happiness in other people and it is really toxic... I am seeking for a friend to overcome my loneliness.. but the truth is, you can still be lonely with someone... just love yourself your happiness is within you.
4. ROCKET ALL THE WAY UP. Frankly, when you grow older, your dream probably fades away.. but I think my dream is growing stronger after these couple of months... I feel like I am ready to make a rocket and explore space... obviously, this is why I started this blog in the first place.

There's something that I wish never happened in the past months... because I think it was the very wrong decision I made, but you learn nothing without mistakes, right? From the mistakes I made, I feel more connected to myself, and what I need and I want... I guess it's the part of growing older?? despite growing older, I still never change my personal trait, cause that's the thing that made me who I am right now, right?

Oh yeah, happy Halloween... I feel this is the new chapter of my life.. probably full of hard work and a strong will to rise.. just like a rocket.... wish I can build one someday !!!!!

Oh yeah... I think this blog is just nonsense from me that tells my childish wish... but honestly, this blog really helps me get through things or stay connected with myself.... when I lost my willpower, I always read this hahahaha, you should make your own too!!! sometimes it's really nice to write something and read it when some time.

Happy Halloween, this is some of my cosplay last year.... this is Ethan Winter from Resident Evil 7 and 8.. I really like this character cause he will do anything for someone he loves.... his story made me realize how badass he is... oh yeah excuse my photoshop skill hahaha just do 5 min edit cause I am lazy

 

Ethan Winter Outfit RE 7 (left) RE 8 (Right)

ps: didn't check the grammar or spelling... so don't mind that 

Wisdom this week:

Just like rockets always fly high and give everything you got to touch the star... and be yourself, your happiness comes from you, not from the other

Burst your limit to unknown space