The pandemic vibe is finally over for me, next month my academic activity will be reversed to offline. It's quite like a two side of the coin for me. I'm happy and sad at the same time. Happy to meet my college friends again and sad to leave the comfort of my bed. Before the pandemic, I see myself as a childish person who just wanna fit in. And now, I am finally happy for who I am and found my lost spirit buried within me for several years. Now, I am finally confident with my own skin, more cherished, and enthusiastic about everything.
Time really flows so fast, now I'm a senior and this year I will be graduating and start figuring about myself again what will I do for the rest of my life. Frankly, I have a few plans for what will I do after I graduated. However, thinking about those plans make me really anxious. It's really been two years since my last offline classes, I am really looking forward to my friend's transformation, it's kinda like a One Piece reference. They were not strong enough so they separated and trained for two years before seeing each other again.
Apart from those things, I really learn much during the pandemic and shaped me to be the person who I am today, of which I am really proud. This is what happened to me during the pandemic I simplified into point
- My first job. Job is boring especially when sitting for several hours in front of your computer is needed. I work as an assistant lecturer and that was a quite fun job. I don't know if that can be categorized as a job since the salary is massively low, but it's quite fun and makes me closer to my professor. This really makes me become an impulsive person.
- My first crush and a broken heart. I never meet that person in real life or knew that person, but just looking at those eyes make my heart melt. I finally knew how it feels to fall in love (since I never did). What I admired most about that person is the hard worker, self proud, and spirit within. I really like someone who is a hard worker and struggles to chase their dream. There's nothing cooler than that. But hey, if you are ready to crush on someone, you must be ready to have a broken heart. That's a long day, but I managed to survive. This is probably my first and last time crushing on someone, I probably won't do that again cause no one will give that butterfly effect as much as that person does. If you are in a broken heart state, I suggest you eat ice cream in your room, cover yourself with a blanket and listen to "Me and my broken heart by Rixton". It's just my advice though, it's not like I am really doing that.
- Lots-and lost of rejection. I applied for so many job applications, and neither of those accept me. It's really making me down and lowering my self-esteem, but hey God will always give you the best. Regardless of all of that, I challenged myself to get rejection every single day just to make myself stronger, so I won't commit suicide when I failed.
- Develop a different mindset. Watching tons of youtube videos, serving on the internet, stalking people, and doing so many activities indoor really changed the way I think. I see more value in things than when I do in real life.
- Learning a new language become bilingual or trilingual is hard, sometimes you mistakenly say or translate the other language.
